Pen's Nest

Oh, this is why it's hard for me to write what I'm currently writing. There's so many things to take into consideration that's happened over the years. Trying to find my footing on the Cosmic Balance makes my head hurt and my brain work in new ways.

I knew Timbertrick would be hard to write, which why I never attempted before, but I really wanted to because I loved reading it. I had ideas of my own I wanted to write that I haven't seen. :D

I want to have multiple sides of Justin displayed in the story and not just the obvious personality traits to get the story moving along. However, I know that I don't want to do the Everything-Is-Justin's-fault either and I'm trying to find something that will counteract it.

I find it difficult to write Chris because he shows so much of himself, yet at the same time doesn't. I could see him getting into a imbalanced relationship, but because of the way I perceive Chris, it would be unlikely, or wouldn't last long.

Which makes me wonder how to make a somewhat h/c fic work. He has such a strong personality, with a sort of, brittleness, jadedness? I'm not sure of the word I want to use, but I hope you understand. Anyway, sometimes I see vulnerability to him, a glimpse that makes me want to squish him. I want to try to explore that side without, as someone told me, feminism him. Chris isn't very feminine. :P

Hmm, I'm not even sure I've said all I wanted to say... But you got me thinking and thank you for making me stop for second to do it. :D

/rambling XD