pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Atheist with Fossil)
I've been reading comments to this post on Why Evolution Is True, and thinking my own thoughts.

Before you go to read them for yourself, tell me—do you think there is life elsewhere in the Universe? Or are we on Earth all there is? And, why?

My own answers )
pensnest: Lance at a distance, caption Hmph! (Lance hmph)
I just saw an announcement for a new community on LJ that made me wince. It's for fan awards. Not, I should add, in popslash.

Like the poster says, "it's being able to say you are THE BEST EVER that's important". Except, not. I just don't like the idea of fan stories being judged in this way. I think it's actually divisive—for every individual who squeaks with joy to find that her/his story has been nominated, there are going to be a dozen, a hundred, who are crushed that their story has not been nominated. For every 'winner', a dozen 'losers'.

I don't think this is a good approach. I perfectly understand the inner desire of every—okay, of *most* authors to be hailed as THE BEST WRITER EVAH!!! I mean, yeah. Sure. But I just don't think it's necessary, and I don't think it's worth the disappointment to everyone else. Instead of being a fun thing where everyone gets to share, it's a divisive thing where some people are deemed worthy and others… aren't. Damn it, it's frustrating, disappointing, upsetting enough to see, say, rec lists which don't feature the story you so painstakingly wrote—even when you *know* it's just a matter of the reccer's personal taste—but now there are to be prizes? Gah.

Besides—how, for heaven's sake, do you judge?
pensnest: Dangling sloth, caption SLOTH, less effort than lust (Sloth)
I've managed to do a round-up of the year's writing every December so far, probably because every December I've been trying to find ways not to write my SeSa story, so here is this year's edition.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?

Less, definitely. I'll start with last year's SeSa fic, Collaboration, which obviously couldn't be included in the December '08 edition of this meme; after that there was only one little snippet, a follow up to the long-ago Justin Junior, until I got to my Dragon Challenge story for this year, in June—and even that was hard work as inspiration was a long time coming. After which, things seemed to pick up a bit and I produced a Remix story, a couple of Trickyfish vampire fics, an Epic Poem and some shortish bits of fun at the end of the year. The substantial exception was my [livejournal.com profile] rpf_big_bang story which clocked in at just under 34,000 words, almost exactly half the year's output of some 66,000 words, well down on 2008. I remember being extremely frustrated at the beginning of the year that I just could not seem to write anything. So many times I went through the prompts on [livejournal.com profile] fic_requests and realised I had no inspiration. Gah. At least I managed to fill a couple towards the end of the year.


What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2008?
Lance Bass/Adam Lambert!


What's your favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?
Has to be Bouquet. I really fell in love with this pairing as I was writing the story, and there will be more of it. Also, I have been very lucky with my artists for big bang fics, and got a gorgeous illustration by [livejournal.com profile] samibee for this one.


Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?
Risks, no, I don't think so.


From my past year of writing, what was...

Best story

Bouquet.

Story Most Underappreciated by the Universe
Jolly Hockey Sticks, my poor little unloved Girls Boarding School AU with Adventure and Stuff. Written for the Poptober Challenge, and pretty much unread, I think. *haz woe*

Most fun
Oh. Probably the Outtakes from Bouquet, which were trouble-free to write as they were so much fun they just flowed out; although The Song of Chris Kirkpatrick was also a lot of fun to do.


Most disappointing
I... don't think I was particularly disappointed in any of my stories this year. Possibly I wasn't being very ambitious. A bit disappointed in the participation in the Dragon Challenge, though—half that of the previous year, and as far as I could tell, not a lot of feedback from readers. Bad readers!


Most sexy
Possibly Bite, even though the actual sex in the story gets short shrift!


Story With a Single Sexy Moment
Erm. Don't think I really did this.


Hardest to Write
Bouquet, I expect, because I *really* wanted it to be right, and the rewriting was a bit harrowing.


"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:
Madame Louella Pearlman's Academy for Young Ladies, probably! Though I wouldn't ever have expected myself to write, deliberately, a sexy vampire bite story.


Most Unintentionally Telling
Um.... nah.


Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?

I *still* have two more parts of the Chronicles to finish. I'm procrastinating with them because they're likely to take a while.

I'm really quite close to finishing my [livejournal.com profile] fanfic100 challenge, only perhaps ten stories left to be written.

I would definitely like to dispose of a bunch of prompts from [livejournal.com profile] fic_requests, it seems such a shame to let the community drift but I have found it difficult to work on these this year. For some reason I seem to be finding it harder to write short fics than I did when I started writing popslash.
pensnest: very small animal on its hind legs, caption Roar! (I am Hamster hear me Roar)
We spent yesterday collecting Father in Law from Bexhill-on-Sea. He had an operation on Wednesday to correct a deformation of his foot, and we overrode his protests about how he'd be perfectly well able to look after himself and insisted he get a bit of pampering here. It shouldn't really have taken all day, but what with the hospital and the M25, well, it did.

Unexpected thinky thoughts about Adam Lambert's recent, er, thing )
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Default)
I went to a funeral on Friday. A friend, younger than I, dead from cancer of the colon.

But you know, it was the best funeral I've attended in a very long time, possibly ever. It was a humanist ceremony, and it focused very clearly on the person it was about. Talked about her life, what she'd done, how she'd affected the people who knew her. Much more clearly than any of the all-too-many religious (specifically, Christian, but of different denominations) funerals I've been to in the last few years.
Brief and possibly offensive musing )
It seems to be a trend nowadays that people don't dress in sub-fusc for funerals, at least, not always. We wore bright things on Friday, and at my father's funeral, and at my grandma's. I like it.
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Hand: caress)
I seem to have managed to do this writing meme in December for a couple of years in a row now, so I thought I'd have another go. I hope some of you will be interested in doing the same thing.

Cut because it gets quite long )
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Default)
Back in the dark ages when I was a poor student, I somehow ended up going out for dinner in London with a bunch of other students and some people who worked in a casino. At the end of the dinner, the guy who was somehow in charge divvied up the bill and told us how much everybody owed. It was scary, because I'd ordered what I could afford and didn't have much in my purse at the time. (Student behaviour would have been that eveyone paid for what they'd had.)

I was reminded of this by a year-old comment I found while following a bunch of links this morning.

...your ability (and mine) to say "it shouldn't be that way, so I'll behave as if it isn't" is the *definition* of privilege. Deciding that we'll just treat everyone as if they had privileges *that they don't get* doesn't end in equality, it never does no matter how much we try it. It leads to racism. Foolishly, I didn't note who said this, but she said it very well.

When you have a healthy income, treating income-free students as your exact equals isn't exactly the right way to go. When you have the advantages of being white (and in my case, middle class and well educated and well off too), treating not-white people as exact equals isn't exactly the right way to go. It's an assumption with far too many flaws.

My apologies to any PoCs reading this - the analogy isn't very good, but it makes sense in my head.
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Abundance)
Visited my Dad today. He's rather weak, having disturbed nights and digestive problems.

On the way home I pondered Stuff, as I usually do, driving back from Lincoln on my own. And I realised that the most important thing I've learned since I discovered popslash is this:

There are always more Words.

That's right. Back in the days before LJ, when I wrote for zines and subsequently for the startrek newsgroup, I used to hoard my 'clever phrases', because I knew that once I'd used them I wouldn't have anything else to say. I wrote fourteen Trek fics of some kind.

But I was wrong. Something like a hundred pop fics later, it turns out, that I don't need hoarded words, because there are always plenty more. I can be profligate, and I won't run out! I wrote two MTYG stories of respectable length, neither of which I'd had any notion of writing until I had to write them, and the words came. You could even say I wrote *five* MTYG stories this year, what with the three written for the MTYG testing, and *all* of them came fresh, I didn't use up any of my storynotions. The words come. It starts off as a struggle (I remember posting a wail of I don't wanna dismay), but they come.

There are always more words. Yay!


Admittedly, this says nothing about the *quality* of the words in question, but that's another story. Or possibly another edit. Just as I'm too lazy to write much without a deadline, I'm too lazy to do real editing work on most of my fics. Bad Pen.


Afterthought: this joyful assertion probably heralds months of writer's block!
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Coffee)
As I have no 'writing' icon, coffee will have to suffice.

I squirrelled about and found a writing meme that I did at the tail end of last year, so I thought I'd do the same thing now. (Anything, rather than tidy the kitchen.)
Cut because it gets quite long )

Links

Jul. 24th, 2007 12:08 pm
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Lance pretty boy)
I'm going to be re-doing my website at, um, some point, Real Soon Now. Anyway, it just occurs to me, I'd quite like to have a links page to connect to other people's fanfic (websites, that is, not LJs). Not recs, probably, just a 'here they are' to lead to people who are still writing in the popslash fandom.

Is there any reason why this would be a bad idea?

If you like the scheme, leave me a link to your website.
pensnest: Cartoon Nick holds finger to lips in bewilderment (Nick Carter Um)
Firstly, thank you [livejournal.com profile] buddleia!

Secondly, I understand some people are having trouble sending feedback to D-Day Challenge authors. Sorry about that - obviously my 'websites for dummies' program is not as useful as it ought to be. You are welcome to send your email to me (use the lj address, or my pensnest one if you know it), and I will make sure it is forwarded appropriately.

Thirdly, a thought. How about a popslash discussion community? I don't *think* there is a community at present which provides what I'm pondering, which is, a place to discuss popslash challenges, meta and what-have-you. For instance, a little while ago there were at least three users who talked in our own LJs about the Remix challenge: there were lots of interesting points of view, and it's a topic that I think would bear more discussion. So it seems to me it'd be nice to have a community specifically for that kind of thing.

I'm not really talking about discussing individual stories, although that could possibly be done. More about the ideas behind stories, trends in storytelling, the influence of RL happenings and where they leave us, and so on.

Is there such a community already, which I have forgotten about? If so, is it actually used? If there isn't... would you like one? Or are we better off staying within our personal journals for these discussions?
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Lance Smirk)
My thoughts on The FanLib Thing (if you don't know what that is, see [livejournal.com profile] metafandom).

There's a market for mackerel. So the fishing folks are sticking bait onto their hooks - they think it's tasty bait, but whatever, mackerel are pretty undiscriminating, frankly they'll throw themselves onto bare hooks if they're brightly coloured - and lowering them to catch mackerel.

Then, they sell the mackerel.

We fan fiction writers should stop thinking of ourselves as FanLib's market. We are not their market. We are their mackerel.

Fortunately, there are other fish in the sea. I think I'll be a bass. Heh.
pensnest: Lady from Lady and the Tramp, batting eyelashes (Lady with irresistible eyelashes)
Amidst a tumble of dragons and Gilbert and Sullivan, I should probably update.

DWTS, in case anyone doesn't know the result, and Remix thoughts )

pot pourri

May. 16th, 2007 02:40 pm
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Tight Connection)
Firstly, I have been infected by that Remix meme, so if you correctly identify which one I wrote, I will write you a ficlet to request. Everyone has been saying that they think their story is Really Obvious, and I think my story is Really Obvious, too, but then again, I haven't guessed anyone else's so far... (Oh, [livejournal.com profile] turloughishere is Not Allowed to guess as she received a honking great clue a while ago.)

I invented an interesting variation on the theme of shepherd's pie yesterday: instead of the traditional lamb mince, I used lentils, leek, carrots, parsnip and shallots, and a prepacked Chicken Jalfrezi for excitement (because I'm too lazy to figure out which spices would really work). Worked very well, though I have promised a Proper One for supper today (which will include the excess lentillage, because they're there).

Beast and I did our customary strot yesterday even though he was taking a day off (usually it is a break from work), and normally spends his days off glued to World of Warcraft. We frequently talk of matters profound (ish), which is nice. Yesterday's topic was hand-holding. He began it, apropos of nothing, by mentioning that he'd heard/read recently of a culture in which it is normal for men to hold hands.

When we go out for our walks, we hold hands. I sometimes hold hands with Bun, too (though it's awkward because she is taller than I, but I am Mum, and it's difficult to figure out whose hand should be in front), but not, as a rule, with Boy, not any more. Do males in our (UK/US at any rate) society ever hold hands with anyone they aren't sleeping with? (Obvious exemption for small children.) I mean, I expect that gay couples hold hands if they are in an environment where it feels safe to do so, and the male half of most straight couples would hold his woman's hand.

Come to that, what about women? I'd... probably link arms with my sister or my best friend, rather than hold hands. My husband absolutely would not hold his brother's hand. Do people hold hands with friends at all? If not, why on earth don't we? Is holding hands really such an intimate thing to do? Now I'm thinking about it again, I think it must be, otherwise we wouldn't be so reluctant to do it. But, why?
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Dragon Challenge)
I saw this on [livejournal.com profile] turps33's LJ, and thought... oh, why the hell not. So.

Name three fics you think I will never, ever, ever write. In return, I will attempt to write a snippet of one of them.

Bring it on.

labels

Apr. 14th, 2007 09:43 pm
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (JC Brain Is Strange)
I love [livejournal.com profile] metafandom, but sometimes my meanderings along its byways leave me bewildered. All this fuss about labelling a story... So many people demanding 'warnings' for such things as background pairings and mpreg. Such delicate souls. Why, I have achieved squick by means of teddybear abuse and unexpected Kevin, not to mention lava lamps, but my friends do not, I think, desert me. However, it does seem to be a topic that arouses unexpected passions in the mildest fannish breast, so I wonder.

My personal habit is to post fics in my own LJ pretty much randomly. If I've written a story, you'll usually get a sentence indicating that it was written for such-and-such a reason. If you are wise in the ways of LiveJournal, you may notice that an occasional story is tagged 'wtf', and you will approach with caution (or glee). I don't in general announce the pairing (anyway, sometimes the pairing is a surprise, and the surprise is part of the story) or the rating. I write with the expectation that if you've friended me, you will have figured out that I perpetrate popslash, including Lampfic, and will treat any LJ-cut entries with appropriate caution.

I don't think the lack of a label on popslash has ever deterred me from at leat *opening* the story. Would you, personally, be *more* inclined to read if I went the whole labelling route, and headed up stories with appropriate categorisation? Do you do that yourself? Do you care, either way?

Incidentally, I run a double index on my website, with pairings and degree-of-sex announcements on the Alternative Index, for those who are looking for something specific and don't care to be startled by, say, Kevin. I'm contemplating revising this to present the stories by pairing, given the startling *quantity* of the things. How do you like stories to be presented, if you're reading on a website? Any advice would be welcome.

about words

Apr. 3rd, 2007 12:38 pm
pensnest: black and white cat on vivid shawl in front of set of encyclopaedia (Cat with encyclopaedia)
Led thither by goodness-knows-what meanderings along LiveJournal paths, I've spent a few happy minutes playing with the Gender Genie, which is supposed to detect whether a piece was written by a male or a female. My essays (admittedly, I only tested two of them) are resoundingly masculine, apparently. My popslash varies, I picked several and got mixed results, but the sole original fic on my site tests as written-by-female, it seems, which is good since it is in a female pov.

What baffles me are the criteria! I mean, how can the use of words such as 'the', 'and', 'where', 'who', 'at', 'it' and 'to' possibly relate to the author's sex? These are crucial components of sentences, aren't they? I was expecting something a little more, hmm, I dunno, writerly - like, maybe, men using more verbs, women using more adjectives and adverbs? Sentence length? Amount of dialogue and length of dialogue sentences?

I have found, in recent years, that I prefer to read fiction written by women (and am still pleased with myself for identifying Julian May as female based on the writing) - because they seem generally to present a fuller world, a world in which there *are* proactive women. Julian May's 'Saga of the Exiles' had a whole world, a rich variety of characters male and female, and some of them were heroic and some of them were troubled, some were strong, some were weak, some smart, some stupid, and their characteristics were *what characterised them*, and not related to their sex. (On the other hand, JK Rowling started to annoy me quite early on, when I realised that although she told us of a wizarding world in which males and females had equal importance, what she showed us was a world in which the only active people were males. Hermione and Rita Skeeter were pretty much the only females who moved the story along - everyone else with an *active* role was male.)

Still, the 'preferring to read fiction written by women' thing has pretty well nothing to do with how often these authors use words like 'where' and 'it'. Though it may, I concede, have something to do with how often they use 'she'.
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Lance chibi)
Well, now. [livejournal.com profile] turps33 was wondering where the pop meta is... I dunno that I'm up to starting off any topics that fit the definition she and [livejournal.com profile] withdiamonds have suggested, but I have been doing some vague musings about writing, and possibly someone else might like to muse along with me? If we stick to popslash, we'll all know who we're talking about.
Read more... )
pensnest: bright-eyed baby me (Camp Sparkle Optional)
I've seen this about the place, but most recently on [livejournal.com profile] nopseud's LJ, from which I have swiped the altered version. Thus, evolution.
Read more... )

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